I'm sure that all (four) of you must be worried about my recent lack of postings. Many of you (okay--just one of you) have written wondering what's up. The truth is that the last couple weeks have been really crazy. My mom arrived, we went to Datong for Golden Week (more later), my mom got sick, Grace got sick to the extent that I spent one night considering ways to get her home quickly (see Arienne's blog), and I also resumed teaching faculty seminars this week, along with my English classes. In short, we've been in survival mode for about a week now, and travel-mode before that. There has been little time to write and reflect.
Things are just beginning to settle down. My Mom left on Wednesday, Grace is still not feeling well but we think she's on the mend (still having stomach problems though). We are now trying to recapture our boring old routine. Our experiences over the last couple weeks--touristing in Datong, my Mom getting sick on a hard sleeper train, our visit to the hospital with Grace (an experience I would have preferred not to have), have given me ample fodder for the broad, unsubstantiated generalizations that I so love to make (see below!), but I just haven't had time to write them down lately. As I told my friend in an email this week, it would be perfect to have a one-hour “experience” everyday, leaving time to reflect, write, as well as teach, exercise, eat, sleep, socialize, etc…. But I guess it doesn’t work that way. The experiences come in exhausting marathon-length episodes, following by stretches of mundane life. Frankly, we relish our mundane lives (all but Samuel, who will have to return to "school" on Monday after a two-week hiatus).
So what about the bike incident?
Two nights ago Samuel and I went on a bike ride. It was already 7:30 pm. By then we usually have the kids bedded down for the night and listening to stories. But with Grace’s sickness our normal routine is broken, so that night Samuel and I jumped on our bikes to ride up to a Chinese bakery that sells European style breads and pastries so that I could get sliced-bread for my classes because, against my better judgment, I was giving a narrated cooking demonstration for my students the next day (making peanut-butter and banana sandwiches, in fact, and singing Elvis—high-powered intellectual stuff).
It was exciting to be riding at night. Bikers were pouring through the streets towards home or more exciting destinations, women sitting sideways on the rear racks of their boyfriends' bikes. Samuel has never ridden at night and he was thrilled. "I like
I was telling him about how my buddies and I used to ride bikes at night in
While we were riding, Samuel asked me if I rode the same mountain bike in
It was a cultural moment. The American lost it. Knowing that no one would understand, I screamed at the bystanders and vented my frustration with their apathy. "Were you just going to watch as he stole our bikes?!!!" I yelled, along with some other things that can't be recorded here. People just stood and stared, most smiling and laughing at the foreigner who had lost his temper.
"Come on Samuel, let's get out of here." As we were about to leave, one of the acquiescent bystanders, part of a group of leather-jacketed young men who had front row seats for the lock-breaking show, walked over and handed me the broken carcass of Samuel's lock, which I viciously (and stupidly) flung onto the sidewalk. We jumped on our bikes and rode home.
On the way, I tried to explain to Samuel, who was holding back tears and wails (which he finally released when we got back to our apartment) that thieves reside everywhere in the world, including the good ole
In fact, two weeks earlier, I had gone after two guys who heisted Arienne and Grace's helmets from Arienne's bike, which was locked up in a crowded city square next to a
That time, there were no bothersome "cultural issues." If anything, it made me think that Chinese criminals were not very hardened if they allowed history teachers--even foreign ones--to grab the stolen goods right from their hands. But this time I felt a burning animosity towards the crowd (not the criminal) that quickly flourished into a sweeping nationalist critique of Chinese culture. "In
And yet I couldn't shake the feeling that the inaction of this particular crowd was not simply "human," but distinctively Chinese (brilliant deduction, you say, since they were all in fact Chinese people on a
*{Note: I realize the above paragraph is packed with over-broad generalizations. My only defense is that they are mostly not my own: they come from books (like Peter Hessler's "
I understand Chinese reticence about getting involved, but the brash American in me values individual action against injustice. The righteous American in me sees the world with perfect moral clarity--there is only right and wrong, good and evil, black and white, with no shades or colors in between. (I'm sure that George Bush would agree with me that those bystanders who silently watched the criminal break Samuel's lock were aiding and abetting "Evil Doers”!). And yet, most of the rest of the world does not have the privilege of seeing the world in such certain terms. Although Americans might prefer moral certitude, the real world operates in many shades of grey, with far more subtlety and complexity.
I have more to say on this, but I guess I'll end there for now.
Thanks for reading.
Dave
3 comments:
I applaud your bravery, even if the indigenous culture finds you have lost face, calm, control.
We, in the States, are blessed. It's unfortunate that the razor's edge between cherishing our freedom to practice moral indignation and the other side where superior self-satisfaction tilts towards fascism. Perfect equilibrium has been challenged and strained.
In addition, the Hohhot "crowd" is no different than that of Prague or Budapest where I visited in mid 1989, before the Wall fell. Frankly, there are too many tiny pricks and stabs at personal and cummunal human kindness (as in kin and compassion) that challenge the individual everyday, everywhere.
I SO appreciate your blogs and your integrity.
What a bizarre experience! I can see why you reacted as you did -- but at the same time, I always wondered how many people must have witnessed your new Cannondale get stolen from that always busy plaza in Marina Del Rey? !? On a completely unrelated point, I wonder why that guy tried to give you the broken lock??? Anyway -- happy to hear that Grace is on the mend and your mom okay (and back home by now, I guess)....
David,
Ah yes, the fabled blue Cannondale. Barbara has it right... Americans are just as indifferent to things that don't directly affect them as anyone else. Whatever happened to civic virtue, I ask you? Well, that last part is only because of my current lecture schedule.
Will send you an e-mail now, to catch up. Life in California proceeds ever so mundanely, to coin a phrase from Arienne's blog entries. Love, Edward
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